Dependence + Trust > Independence + Control
By: Maddie Owen
Trusting in the Lord doesn’t just happen on its own and unfortunately, it has to be a daily surrender. For some, even an hourly surrender. You see, it’s easy trust Him when life is slow and easy, but when it picks up and wants to start sprinting is where I say, “Ok Lord, clearly you aren’t going to control this the way I want to, so I will do it myself.” However, when I am in the right mindset and am in control of my anxiety, I can see how ridiculous that is. But in the moment, I can’t convince myself that He is a good father and that I can trust Him. I have a tendency to try to figure out the things that the Lord hasn’t revealed to us.
Deuteronomy 29:29 says, “The secret things belong to the Lord our God, but the things that are revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may do all the words of this law.”
I catch myself trying to figure out the things that the Lord hasn’t revealed to me, instead of wholeheartedly pursuing the things that He has. The reason I get overwhelmed is because in that moment I am trying to be independent, I am not relying on the Lord’s goodness and I’m not trusting in Him. Sometimes I find myself trying to be independent and I end up relying on my emotions. Your daily feelings aren’t your reality, your emotions are fleeting and constantly changing. This is why the Lord calls us to dependence and trust. The Lord knows what is true and what is constant, our emotions do not fall into that category though. In my heart, I know the truth. I know that the Lord is for me, I know that he loves me, and ultimately, I know that He is going before me, but sometimes the reality of trust is hard. It isn’t easy, but I promise you it is worth it. By trusting in the Lord we can save ourselves time and energy. Just thinking about all of the things I have tried to control within even this past week, it’s overwhelming. I think, “Why do I do this to myself?”, but then the next week comes and I struggle again. Like I said, it is a daily surrender. Trust is so hard, but the Lord hasn’t let me down yet, so I don’t know why I am living a life that reflects a God that has let me down time and time again. What is your life reflecting? Can people tell that you trust in a faithful God, or does it look like you trust yourself?
I am going to leave you with this.
It’s hard to trust in the Lord when you can’t recall the truths about Him. Here are some truths that help get me through the tough days. Read them, write them down, memorize them, hide them in your heart so that when the days get tough and you want to be independent rather than dependent, you can remind yourself that the Lord is good!
- He CHOSE you. (Ephesians 1:4)
- He is perfect in all of His ways. (Deuteronomy 32:4)
- He is for you. (Romans 8:28, 31)
- You are: held, known, loved, seen, and enough.